Planning for the Future

Recently I decided to make myself a two year plan. I did so i can get a better view of where I want to be and where I am. And to focus myself more. I've also been talking to my old Therapist Mary. She has been alot of help on getting a better view and focus on things. I've started implementing my new path and won't have a true understanding of it for at least a month. I have lots to do in the two years but I also have a lot of time. I did break it up into 3 months 6 months and one year as well. I have things to do by december and will see if I can acomplish them. if I can't I won't be mad as long as I made progress,

I also found out I have a high cholestrol and have started taking pills for it. Hopefully I can get a handle of that before my next doctor visit.

Theres not much else to talk about as I haven't done much yet. But I'll have lots to say later. Might even mention some things from my plan.

Well talk to you soon.
Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."

Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Production Changes

Hey everybody,

I just wanted to tell everyone about a few changes with my projects. I've decided to rework a lot of things. So I can better integrate them into my life and speed up production a bit. I also needed to change the plan for one story and bring back another story and put it ahead in the old production plan.

I decided to truly separate two stories that were under the same series name. Now the more fantasy one will be Chronicles of Unsu and the futuristic one will be Legacy of Unsu. Chronicles is pretty much ready to write and will only be held back a bit as i work on the webcomic. After I finish chronicles which might be two books worth from the current plan, I'll begin Legacy.

I'm also trying to get a job still and getting ready to reaplly to all the part=time jobs in the area since most of them my application is up. Part of me feels its pointless as it seems I'm just not getting a job at those places and probally not a any new places that might open up. On the subsitute teacher front, I should be up to take the essay this October. All I need to do is continue practicing my essays. Currently my big problem is run=on sentences. I need to nip them in the bug or I will fail again when it comes to the essay. I really need this job as its been two years since I last worked and one year since I graduated. If this keeps up I might not be able to get a job. I need one soon as at the end of this year I will no longer have any health insurance.

Now about the webcomic. So far the plan is solid and only need to test the waters a bit with a few promo joke comics. After that I will begin writing the first script and eventually begin drawing the comic. Then all I will need is to get a webcomic page on either comicgenisis or on drunk duck.

I'm also working on developing resources for future projects. These resources will make doing them quicker and easier.

Well thats it for now I'll talk to everyone soon, I hope everyone has a good productive week.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."

Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Production Week 3

It seems I need to go against my current motto as I have to rethink my stories and ideas. i won't be able to do the contest coming up because I'm just not ready and I don't have the discipline or focus to pull it off in such short time. Plus my mom wants me to focus on my essay skills since she wants me to become a substitute teacher.

I really think its a bad Idea and won't turn out good when I begin my transition. Why work for a job that you will only lose when you start making your life better. The Only way I could maintain that job would be to not transition and it would only lead to more mental and emotional stress.

Well I'll give ya a heads up as soon as I have something to show. Well see ya soon.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."

Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Production Week 2

Hey Everybody,

This is the second week of production for me. I finalized designs a little more for the game but there hasn't been much progress really. I'm trying a few different methods soon. I'm hoping to spend tonight on my writing hopefully there is progress.

I'm also planning to plan when I want certain projects finished or at least released to the public. I'm using the webcomic to set up the schedule as I would love for the first real issue to come out the first week of january. Which means the five weeks before it will have the promo comics I plan to work on. From their I'll figure the release of the other projects. Some will be before some may be after just need to work on the basic of it all.

Well thats it for now. I hope to finish concepting soon and to push forward to the next stages of all my projects

Well talk to ya soon.
Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."

Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Production Week 1

Hey everybody,

This is the first edition of my weekly entry that focuses on the production on my many projects. This is where I'll tell ya how the projects are going and will eventually post images or links to where you can see my work.

Well to begin with the game project has entered the concept phase. I will soon post the concept art necessary for the first three levels of the games. It will mostly be character art. I will also finish making the base models that all human based characters will based from. I will eventually make base models for the other races.

The novel is getting ready to enter over drive as I dedicate my late nights to my novel. Hopefully I'll get it done by the end of august. I will also ask my mom to review my chapters so I can improve them.

The Comic is also entering the concept art phase and will enter prototyping right after as I make a few practice comics to get use to the feel and style. Then I'll write the script for the first issue of the comic. Hopefully that will be ready to post in september but I may hold it off so I can finish a few issues.

Well that's it for Production this week. Hopefully next week I'll show ya a few images. Well see ya soon.

Blue

Projects

Its been some time since I updated. I been working on a few new projects which are still in the planning stage. I'm still working on the book and will soon ask people close to me to read parts of it to get their opinion. I am behind schedule though but I think it's good since they can kinda help shape future chapters by telling me problems i'm putting in the story so I can change them and prevent my self from adding he same issues in future chapters.

Another project I'm doing is a trangender based webcomic. I use to do webcomics before but ended up stoping as things got to hectic. I plan to remake those old ones later but felt best to start with something new to get my juices flowing. It's in the planning phase and I hope to start conceptualizing characters and making practice comics as I work on the script. I'm thinking of a september release if I can just figure what site i'm going to put it on.

I'm also beging work on my own game. I don't know what engine i'm using ad am more in the concept and planning phase. And after that I have to build all the assets. I'm mainly doing this to nter a contest I saw but I'm not sure if I can finish it in time for it. If I can't I'll continue to work on it cause it would be fun to have my own game out even if it's just some mod. I need to work on my programing so I can program the whole game by myself. Mainly cause I don't know any programers. If you know of any please tell them to contact me for negotiations.

Well thats all with those three projects I'll have my hands full. I plan to put together a new demo reel but that depends on how the game project goes since I could just rip stuff from the game for my reel.

Well talk to everyone soon.
Blue

Write-a-thon and memories

Hey everybody,
Today begins the write-a-thon. I will begin my writing later today after I tweak my story plan a little. Then I just have to do some revisions to the first two chapters I already written and begin the writing process. I also plan next Saturday to post the first Chapter on my blog. So read and enjoy.

Today is also fathers day and it makes me remember my dad who died last year. This is the second fathers day without him. I really do miss him but I also feel that I would have no possibilities of transitioning at home. Right now the only thing holding me back is a lack of money which I'm slowly saving up. Hopefully today goes good and I don't have a nervous breakdown or something.

Well I look forward to posting again especially when I have the novel to post.

Thoughts on one's birthday.

Today is my birthday and I turn 23. I been thinking a lot on many different things but mostly on what I have achieved so far. Fact is the last thing I did that was so great as a 22yr old is graduate from collage. My luck I graduated when the economy was the way it is. But it's not just that. I didn't apply myself as best as I could and have alot of ideas and projects left unfinished.

That's why my current goals is to strive for a better future. I think the best way to do that is go back and finish all my ideas. Be they webcomics, novels, or game projects. I feel I can't give up on my dreams just yet till I at leas finish most of the ideas I ever came up with. That doesn't mean there published and making me money or anything. But if I can have something to show, be it a manuscript, a website with my art and comics on it, or a working game mod based on my ideas I can load up and play.

I also plan to move forward with my transition by first doing the things that will make it easier. I will continue going to the and finish losing more weight so it will be easier when I do start hormones. And I will try everything in my power to get money to fund my transition. And finally I hope to help my mom understand me easier as i feel I need her emotional help when I begin.

The next time ya hear for me on hear I'll have something to show ya. That's a promise.

Blue

Trials

Today after me and my sister came back from the gym she read a passage from this small booklet the church I go to gives out every three months. It's called your daily word and each day as a passage and what this passage means. My sister read a passage that described how god some time gives us pain and troubles to make us better people. And it really touched me.

A lot of the stuff I'm going through now is in a way making me better. I feel if I graduated landed a job in the game industry would have left me very open for a big fall that would have done more damage down the line. I am not the best artist in the world and maybe even rate below average to those found in the game industry. The reason is at some point I stopped putting enough effort in my work or going the extra mile. The fact that it seem that the teachers were just passing us to get us outta the school may have helped in making me this way.

I didn't listen to some of my friends when they say that I'm all alk and don't finish many of my ideas. How I needed to sop playing games and concentrated on improving my skills so I could make them. But now after going through a lot of depression in the last months since graduating I'm starting to get back on track. Maybe not in making art for games but at least in my writing. I plan to finish my first novel this summer and hope that I can get it published.

I'm continuing on training my voice and learning other things that will be very useful in passing as a women when I begin my transition. I'm beating the lazy out of me and maturing myself. When I am in a better place financially I will progress with my transition, until then I will focus on making my self better and thanking god every day for the pain he gave me to realize my faults. And giving me the time to improve my self so when I do break in to games or become a author I will be the best that I can be and not come in giving a bad impression.

Well thanks for listening.
Blue

Writing

Well I got back in to my writing last night. Though I only did two pages I felt they turned out pretty good. I also finished sending off my information to the Clarion West Write-a-thon. I also plan to post the first few chapter of my novel as I finish them on my website and on this blog. This way ya can give me a little feed back to improve it.

Well that's it for now I'll tell you more as I finish the things I need to do.

Blue

New Horizons

Hey everybody,
Just wanted to say hi and give a update on things in my life. Recently I went to a doctor to get antidepressants. The reason is cause for awhile now I lost the desire to do anything, almost like I didn't have enough energy or dive to do a lot in the day. I feel a little more energized but it's hard to tell since I just recently got the sims 3 game and it's hard for me not to play it non-stop.

Recently I've talked to a friend who is looking for a new job in a separate career from the one I'm trying to get into. She told me the importance of making a web presence. It would help in finding and even getting jobs in the field you desire to get into. So been thinking about my web presence and the project I want to do. I feel I now have a plan for that which may have a few kinks to work out. But I'll be glad to you more as soon as I fully figure it out.

Well for now Talk to you soon.

Long Time

Hey everybody,

I'ts been a long time since I posted. A lot of things that were starting to look good had the rug pulled from under them. I kinda decided not to pursue the game industry or any creative field at this time. The reason for this is that I feel my skills are at a very low level and I need to relearn a lot of things. It's not that I don't know how to do certain things. I just lost the will to do them.

I also started going to the gym and so far have been doing right I didn't bother checking my weight as I don't really want go by my weight. Other than that nothing new really. I hope that I have something better to say next time but I'm still in a slump right now.

Well I'll talk to ya later.

Website Redesign

Just wanted to give everyone a heads up. I just Updated the layout of my website as well as added some old content I had lying around. I have lots of stuff I will add in the future so look out for new stuff soon.

Blue

I have a Doctor

Hey everyone,

I am happy to report that I have a new doctor. I will meet her next week friday, and the best thing is that she has experience with transgendered patients. Hopefully if everything goes good I'll be leaving with a prescription for hormones. Well thats pretty much it, so I'll tell ya more next week.

See ya soon.

New Year and the Next Step

Happy New Year everybody. It has been some time since graduation and I feel I am finally out of the rut I was in for awhile. I am getting back to my writing and am enjoying where the story is going. I also happy to say that I started to go to a new counselor recently and he has given me approval to ask my old Counselor for a letter of recommendation for hormones. I can't wait all I need to do is find myself a new doctor who would be alright to have a transgendered patient.

Also I will soon be applying for a job as a substitute teacher so please hope for the best. Well I'll talk with ya soon.