Blue Update

Hey everybody,

another week to go before I start working again. So far I'm completing a few games I haven't beat yet. This way I can focus on work and my writing.

Speaking on writing, I'm working on creating a storyline plan for my novel. This will be my most detail plan as it will have info for the chapters and background info on any minor characters I add to the story.

I'm also doing a lot of budget planning for the eventual money I will be making. I want to make sure I put good use to the money while being able to enjoy myself a little.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Gaming Update

Hey Everybody,

Starting next weekend I will get back to doing my gamin challenges. Where I challenge myself to complete games I haven't completed or games I wish to run through again. i will post a list up every friday on what I'm doing and then post another update when I'm finished.

Well thats it for now. I'll talk to you later.

Blue

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Blue Update

Hey Everybody,

Well things are going good still. Next week I will be getting the clothes I need for my new job. I'll will either be getting them at Old Nave or JC Penny. Other than that I been having issues with Left 4 Dead 2. I keep getting disconnected a lot or timing out. It really sucks in my opinion. Well thats it for now. I will have a few more updates this weekend focused on diffrent topics.

Talk to ya soon.

Blue

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Blue Update

Hey everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. Things are good right now as I await the first day of work. I recently got Fable 3 and beat it just yesterday. I still have lots of collecting to do though. The next game after that will be Red Dead Redemption.

Well thats it for now.

Talk to you soon.

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Game Challenge

Well thursday is when i started my new game challenge. It started with Fable The lost chapters and will continue with Fable 2 in preparation for Fable 3. There will also be some Sims 3 fun as I prepare for Sims 3: Late Night. There's a few other games as well which you will she in the list.

Final Fantasy Xiv
Pokemon Ranger
Red Dead Redemption
Fallout 3

Well I'll update ya later on how it goes.

Blue


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Blue Update

Hey Everybody,

Well as you know I got the seasonal job. My old friend who now lives in Texas says I should look into seeing a dermatologist to deal with my acne and razor bump issues. It depends heavliy on my mom and how much she aids me in preping for the job. My budget is tight till I get the first pay check which will be near the beginning of December since I don't start till the end of November.

In other news, I begin a gaming challenge in preparation for Fable 3 and Sims 3: Late Night. I already started it yesterday with Fable the Lost Chapters. I'll tell ya more in a post dedicated to the challenge.

Well thats it for now I'll talk to ya later.

Blue

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Blue Update

Hey everybody,

I wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. Well I went to a job interview today. It was for a seasonal job at Macy's. And I got the job. This is the first job I've had in 3 years. I'm going to work my hardest to impress them so they keep me on beyond the season.

Well thats it for now. Talk to ya soon.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Blue Update

Hey everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. Not much has changed since my last update. Though I have some good news. I have an interview with Macy's tuesday. Hopefully it goes well.

I have begun what I call gamer challenge. I started it off with Final Fantasy XIV. Id some major leveling up in that game and will continue a little each day. The next major challenge is to progress in my sims 3 family legacy. I will also work on the fable games in preparation for fable 3 which comes out next week.

I also started reading the fable novel. Which is turning out to be really good. I just finished the 4th chapter. I'll tell you more during the week as I plan to finish it before the new fable 3 game.

Well thats it for now. I'll try to update everyday this week as there's a lot going on.

Blue

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Daily Update: Oct. 5

Hey Everybody,

This is my first daily update. Well I received the new fable book. So far I only finished reading the prologue. I will take my time with it as I don't want to finish it to fast. I hope it turns out well and I will make sure to tell you as I get through it.

So far it seems I won't be able to play the sacrifice today. It is taking forever to download. I guess I should have expected this.

I did some cleaning earlier. Mostly my daily chores. I plan to start with my weekly chores tomorrow.

Well thats it for now. I'll talk to ya later.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Blue Update

Hey everybody,

It has been sometime since my last update. Starting later today I will begin to do daily blog updates. They will be focused on what I have done that day or something I may have found interesting. For now I'll give you a quick update on things and info on some of my plans for the future.

I have accepted my situation and the fact that I have a long way to bettering my life. I've learned to find happiness in what I can do for now. Which is playing games and regaining my passion for art. I already have some ideas for my writing. Some or short stories and one is a novel I'm finally ready to begin writing again. I also though on working on bringing back my old webcomics. I'll inform you as I get closer to doing those comics and will even show you the old comics.

I have also recently began re planning my game idea. Hopefully it will go well. So far it's in the planning phase. I hope to enter it in into one of the indie game contest.

I'm also accepted that I can't transition right now and will try to hold my self from doing anything to drastic.

I also have the Fable book coming in the mail today. It will get me hyped up for the Fable 3 game.

Well thats it for now. I'll talk to ya later.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Blue Update

Hey everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. Life still sucks here. I have to wait even longer to take a test that I most likely will fail. Life sucks even more I think because of the wait. Everything is so far away.

There's really nothing I can do right now. There's no jobs out there. I can't go out since I'm low on money and I have no people to hangout with. I spend my whole day in my room. I wish there was more to do but I lack the focus to write or do anything art related.

So all I can really do is sit here moping and playing games. There's also doing chores but they don't really keep me from moping. Kinda wish I had a do-over and could chose a different major or spent more time improving my skills. To bad there's no such thing.

Wish I had someone to talk to but my family is to wrapped up in their own things. Find it sad that my mom finds books more important than me. At least my sister has something more important with spending time with her boyfriend.

Well I'll talk to you soon.

Blue

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Fable 3 Limited Collector's Edition Unboxing

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Website Update

Hey everybody,

Well their hasn't really been any real progress with my website redevelopment. The main problem being that I have lost my drive. That and my drawing ability is much lower than my last website redesign. Mainly because I been spend all my time since last year focusing on trying to get a regular job. So I never had time to keep up with my skills.

That will change soon as I plan for the future. My primary focus for the future is to move forward with my life goals no matter the cost. It means a lot of sacrificing. The goal is to rebuild my life from scratch. To regain all the skills I let dwindle and to walk the path in life that I never had a chance to.

It means going behind my family back. But it must be done. It also means a refocus on what my site will be about. The main purpose for my site beyond just a online portfolio is to be my masterwork in a way. A place that houses all my ideas and projects in some way.

Well I'll tell you more in the future. For now talk to you later.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Gaming Update

Hey Everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. I have been playing a lot of FFXIV. It is really fun and I think it's an MMO I can sink my teeth in. The problem is should I. With my current situation should I be wasting time and money on a MMO. Another thought is MMO's slated to come out in the next year. Am I more tempted to play those than this one. I have played a lot of MMO's over the years and I haven't really played them long. Either money issues kept me from playing or I got bored of the content.

Finacially I guess I went at MMO's badly. It would have been cheaper to stick with an MMO than switching to a new one and wasting another $50 on a dame disc only to play it a month or two.

Now the boredom part is why do get bored. What makes me think the next MMO I won't get bored. I think mostly it's the lack of social interactions I get in MMO's. Mainly cause the friends who said they would play quit, or never joined. I've decided I should never base an MMO purchase on friends who think they will play.

The cool thing with FFXIV right now is that I am part of a guild. This is one of the first guilds I joined on a MMO. Most times I use to make my own or joined a friends. which Mostly ended up with my by myself as my friends left or never joined at all.

I think I will hold off on FFXIV being the MMo for me till I finish going over my plans for the future. I have other things in life that are bigger than video games. And really whats stopping me from joining much later when I have my life settled and the MMO has a more stable community.

Well thats it for now. I'll talk to ya later.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Job Search Update

Hey everybody,

Things aren't going to good with my job searching. I know I need to go back to school in order to get a job. Now my mom feels I should get a job first. Kinda weird in my opinion. Well I'm still studying for the substitute test and will hopefully be able to take it once my mom gets paid. Pass or fail. I will pursue going back to school. Even if I have to scrap money together to pay for an application.

Well thats it for now. I'll talk to ya later.

Blue

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Blue Update

Hey Everyone,

For a moment I thought I found another possible job, but that was a total bust. Seems like theres no hope sometimes. So I guess that means I will stick to the path before me. Which is trying to become a substitute teacher. hopefully I don't fail.

I really need to do something about my drive. I am behind on my website, animations, and my story because I lose the ability to do anything some days. If I don't fix this I will just stay in my rut till my mother decides to finally wash her hands of me.

I wish there was more to say. But there's not much going on in my life. Well I'll talk to ya soon.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Gaming Update

Hey Everybody,

This is a gaming update. This week was a good week for games for me. I recently downloaded Dead Rising 2: Case Zero, Scott Pilgrim VS. the World, and got to start playing Final Fantasy XIV Open Beta.

Dead Rising 2: Case Zero is pretty much a prologue/ demo for Dead Rising 2. it was fun as you got to get back into gameplay similar to the first Dead Rising. The controls are better in my opinion especially how guns work. I love that now you can run and gun. Well more like walk and gun as you don't move to fast while aiming the gun. The story pretty much focuses on tring to find medication for your daughter and fixing a old bike so you can make your escape from a zombie infested town.

I haven't gotten to far into Scott Pilgrim VS the World yet. But I finally bought it when the trial gameplay and music made me want to play the full game. I hate that there's no online co-op since I have no one around who will play with me. But I'll just handle it solo and hope they get an online co-op later. Or try to convince my sister to play. Well I'm only up to the second level right now so I'll get back to this later.

Now Final Fantasy XIV open beta started this week. It had a rocky start as they had to push back the date once. They also had a lot of server issues. But it was worth it when I finally got to playing. They made leveling slower compared to closed beta, but thats understandable. I love the new locations and the music is wonderful. It makes me tempted to start day one when it comes out but I'll still wait a bit since I have Dead Rising 2 coming out around the same time. Well I'll talk more on this later as the Beta continues.

For the next update coming next week, I'll be going further with Scott Pilgrim as I try to beat it. I will also have more on Final Fantasy XIV as the Beta Continues and defiantly some screen shots. Also next week is the new DLC for Mass Effect 2. I will have some info on that as I at least play pass the first level.

Well thats all for now. So I'll see ya soon with the next Gaming Update.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Job Search

Hey Everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. This will be my first job search update. I will be doing this every week till I find a job. Well to start off it is extremely hard to find a job right now. It's not like theirs a major lack of jobs out there. It's just that a majority of them I lack the degree or experience to have any chance at getting the job.

So thats why I am planning to take a general knowledge test to try to become a substitute teacher. I'm going to have to borrow money from my mom to pay for the test. But if I pass I can pay her back and start helping around the house financially. I can also move forward with my other plans in life.

I also plan to pursue my masters with a online school. I was thinking of majoring in creative writing. I can at least get a job as a copywriter and there's lots of other jobs that deal with good writing.

Well thats it for now. I hope to hear from ya soon.

Blue.

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Blue Update

Hey everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. Well it's defiantly set to take the general knowledge test for two weeks from now. If things go good I'll finally be working again.

Another thing is that I'm going to once again try to update the blog with different blog topics.

I also am balancing my budget to try to figure out how to get my games. I called gamestop to see how long they will hold the collector editions to the games I reserved. They said 3 weeks. I might still have to cancel a game since I won't be able to get everything.

Well thats it for now. Be on the look out for my topic based blogs.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Website Update

Hey Everybody,
Ok this is a Blog I been waiting to give you all. Well recently I have begun work on conception and designing a redesign to my website. With this redesign I will begin a new push to break into the game industry. If I am succesful in my tasks hopefully before the end of next year I will be in my field.

Now My website will have a new look to it. Not to much difference from how it looks now But with a few improvements. The Main goal is to have completely new content. With this content will show my latest skills and get me to work more on even more content. It will also lay the ground work for a few personal projects I will be working on in the coming months.

So far I don't have a time frame for when the website will be done. But I will post updates as I go. Well thats it for now. I'll make sure to update you soon.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Blue Update

Hey everybody,

It's been some time since my last update and a lot of things have happened. To begin with I am currently studying for the general knowledge test so I can become a substitute teacher or a full-time one. If I pass I will finally have a job after a long time of being jobless. If I fail I will just have to try again after studying some more. I'll make sure to update ya on this as soon as it comes up.

Another thing going down is that I am redeveloping my website. I'm currently conceptualizing and laying out. It won't look to different from what my site currently looks like but it will have more content for sure and a focus on getting me a job in my field. I will be studying other game artist sites and a few writer sites to help design my site.

Ok in other news, I am working on a few game mods that will also build the content for my site. I will be pushing up my production and the time I spend on it as I go. I want to improve my skills with my animations by doing this and hopefully it will reflect on these game projects as well as my website.

I am also rebuilding the world my story takes place in. This isn't a rebuild of the story or characters. This is focused on the world and how things work there. It will impact the story a lot with how things will be described to some of the interaction between characters from different parts of the world. But it will make the story more believable. I will also do a few short stories after I finish to test out how things work.

Now with my whole transition thing. I am currently doing research on different hormones and other things that I may need to do. I will soon make a decision on how I go about achieving one of the most important things in my life. Which is to finally become the woman inside.

Well thats it for now. I will have more info in the week on all these subjects. So look out for the latest blog updates. You will defiantly be getting a lot more of them.

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Life Update

Hey Everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. I still have my future on my mind and am trying to figure out what to do. I want to transition and finally become a woman but I lack money. If I gave up on buy games I probably would be able to do but it's real hard to do as I realize i am extremely addicted to games.

I think I could work around it if I had a social life but I really don't have any friends at this point in my life. I'm trying to figure out just what I need to do. I want to do my art but I'm not good enough to live off it. I also lack any skills for the available jobs in my area. It really sucks. I'm going to attempt becoming a teacher but I don't feel I can deal with kids.

I really wish I had some people to discuss this with but I have disconnected myself from the support group I use to go to. I want to go back but I don't think I'm ready yet.

Well I'll talk to ya later.

Blue


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Pokemon Update

Hey Everybody,

Time for the Pokemon update. I have entered the next phase of my development of my pokemon collection. With over 150 pokemon on my soul silver game I will now begin to trade over pokemon from my diamond game. I will also be getting pokemon ranch on the wii so I can get the mew thats on there.

I'm also about to capture heattran on my pokemon diamond game. I'm also ready to get the new event pokemon from the recent wi-fi event.

Well thats it for now. I'll keep ya updated on my quest to catch them all.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Weekly Update

Hey Everybody,

It's time for the weekly update. Recently I been pushing forward with my animations as well as think about the future. I am defiantly not where i want to be and it's about time I fix that. I don't have full control on achieving what I want in life but I can do what I can.

As you know I'm working my ass of doing character animations for a mod team. Well I'm going to get more professional with that as I get ready for the end of the summer. It's key that I do a lot of animations so I can feature the best on my website.

I also been thinking about the whole transition thing and have finally have a path set for me. Their is still some fine tuning and research needed. But unless anything dracstic happens I'll probally go forward with the plan.

Job wise I really don't know. I'm kinda building my plan around the lack of money. Since I don't think I stand a chance in finding a job. I just don't have a good resume and their's nothing I can do to improve it unless I get work. I wish i could find something that could use my skills but my best bet is to improve my character animation skills and try to land some freelance gigs.

I'm also beginning to redevelop my lore for my personal projects. I did some major research on world building for stories. I will implement what I learned to my lore and begin work on the novel as soon as that done.

Well thats it for now. I hope to update ya soon.

Blue


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Pokemon Update

Hey Everybody,

Well I almost have 150 pokemon on my Soul Silver game. When I do I will get the pokemon ranch on my wii and will work at getting mew. I also plan to focus my time on Diamond since Soul Silver isn't compatible to Pokemon Ranch.

Also I'm currently trying to acquire Heattran on my Diamond. Also at the end of the month I will be able to download a special item that will allow me to get Latios for my game.

Well thats it for now. I'll talk to ya later.

Blue.

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Quick Update

Hey Everybody,

Just saying hi and giving ya a quick update. I haven't updated last week as i couldn't find time. I am seriously behind on things and may very well have to cut back on things. I plan to come up with a new plan for the rest of the year to kinda focus my time and to achieve my goals.

I finished all the origin stories in Dragon Age: Origins. I'm planning to download Dark Chronicles and eventually Lieanna's song.

I'm trying to get in contact with Mary, But I think things are rather hectic for her.

Well thats it for now. Be prepared for future updates this week.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Weekly Review

Well last week is over and I'm late once again.

Last week had some progress but was really mostly another failure. I have been running my story and game ideas with a friend and have better fleshed it out. I will soon start jotting it down as I update the lore and game doc of my story idea.

I also started some new blog updates that I hope to to keep up with. I also kinda slacked on my animations as I either played games or watched movies with the family. I realize now that I need to do my animations in the weekday and not the weekend.

I also been thinking of what to do with myself to improve my situation. I need to change but I still don't know in what way. So for now I will wait and buy my time.

Well thats it for now I'll talk to ya later.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Pokemon Update

This is my first Pokemon update.

I know it's childish to be playing such a game but i love collecting things. So far the only pokemon I will oficially count in my collection must be on my Soul Silver game. I will begin trading pokemon from my Diamond game to my Soul Silver. Currently i have 140 different pokemon on my Soul Silver. Ranging from starter pokemons to legends. My goal is to catch all known pokemon before pokemon black and white comes out.

Well thats it for now. I will give you updates on any future pokemon I add to my collection.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Book Update

Well this is the first book update.

Currently i'm reading Mass Effect: Revelation. The first book based on the mass effect games. It takes place before the first game. I plan tio read it before I play the first game again. So far I only finished two chapters so far.

Pretty much know something going down when a research station is attacked with no survivors and someone missing. I'll tell more as I get farther in the book.

Well thats it for now.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Game Update

Hey Everybody,

This is my first game update. First i will speak on the games I will be focusing on for now. I'm currently activly playing Puzzle Quest 2, Dragon Age: Origins, Mass Effect Persona 3 and 4. I also plan to play Limbo as soon as it comes out.

I recently got Puzzle quest 2 and am tring to beat it. I'm taking my time as it is a puzzle game and can get frustrating and anoying if you play it to much. So far i'm a level 22 assassin.

In Dragon Age my main goal is to go through the diffrent origin stories I never did. I also plan to get the DLC I haven't aquired yet. It should be fun.

For Mass Effect I'm trying to max level one of my characters so I can get the best bonuses when I play mass effect 2 again.

And for the two Persona games I'm trying to finally beat them as I have never went all the way as I allowed some new game to always catch my attention. Hopefully I can finish them this summer.

I'm also waiting for the first game of the summer of arcade Limbo. It looks like it will be a fun platformer.

Well thats it for now. I hope you enjoyed this update and I will give more indepth updates as Iget farther with the games I'm playing.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Weekly Preview

Hey Everybody,

I'm kinda late with this preview. Well for this week I'm going to focus on animations and finally catching up with all my chores. I really need to hurry up and catch up or risk the chance that I may prove to be no use to them.

I also need to begin studying for the general knowledge test so I can become a teacher. As my mom is kinda forcing me to take the test at the end of the month.

I'm also going to begin doing a few different blog topics this week. I will do a gaming update, Book update, and a blog on trying to catch all the current pokemon. I will see about doing more once I get use to doing these.

Well thats it for now. I'll talk to ya later.

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Ideas for future blog entry's

Just wanted to put together a list of possible blog entry's.

Games I'm Currently Playing

This will focus on any of the games I'm currently playing. I would give status reports on my game playing based on where I am in the story and how my game playing is going.

Books I'm currently Reading

This is pretty similar to the games, but for books.

Pokemon Collection

This will kinda be a brief journal of my quest to catch all the current pokemon before the new game comes out next year.

Short Stories

This will mainly be weekly short stories I write based on my different story ideas.

Recent Movies I've seen

Since this is the summer and the best time to go watch movies I can give reviews on the movies I see.

Animation Report

Pretty much this will kinda be linked to my youtube page as I upload new animations to show off.

Empire Avenue Stock Review

This is where I'll explain my current reviews on stocks on empire avenue as well as my fuure stock plans for my portfolio.

That's it for ideas for now. I could use any help on which ones to focus on first. Well talk to ya later.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Weekly Review

Hello everyone,

It's time for the weekly review. This week I was a bit sluggish again. I have gotten some animations done but still have lot to do. Currently I'm trying to finish up as much of my chores to catch up and free some time to work on my art.

My empire avenue stock price went up to 11.5. Hopefully I can push it up further. I think I need to write more blogs maybe. Need to think up other blog topics. I'm thinking of writing one about my job search and maybe some about game reviews. I'm also thinking of writing short stories and posting them here.

I recently bought puzzle quest 2 and it is defiantly a major improvement over the first one. I kinda like the route they went and kinda wish they release future dlc to expand on it. Also bioware has released info on dragon age 2. I'm kinda sad I can't continue my character's story and wander what will happen to her further adventures. I also played the new engineer update on team fortress 2 and it is rather fun.

Well still rather jobless right now. My mom starting to force me to take the general knowledge test to become a teacher. I think its a waste of money as I am rather bad with essays. I also feel it best for me not to be a teacher. A lot of what I want to do with my life can't be done while I'm a teacher. It's never good for transgender individuals to be around kids. Mainly cause parents over react and think we're perverts or something.

Well thats it for now. I'll try to think up more possible blogs and interesting things to do.

Blue


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Weekly Preview

Ok this is rather late because of the 4th of july and the day after. Well to begin with this week I will be getting heavy with my character animations. The Mod team I'm part of need me to do some basic animations to begin with.

I also got chores to do but thats every week.

I also want to finish developing the lore behind my own game idea. Hopefully I can finalize it enough to begin work on developing the game project.

I also plan to beat puzzle quest on my 360. Hopefully I finish soon so I can buy puzzle quest 2.

Well thats pretty much it for now. Kind of a lame preview this week. As a bonus I'll add a old animation i did some time ago.



Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Weekly Review

Well today is the first weekly review.

To begin with things didn't go as planned this week, but thats not a bad thing. Instead of working on my own project I decided to join a mod team and work as a character animator. So far so good i guess, but I haven't done much yet and still haven't developed a flow yet.

In other news I tried the new mutation mode to left 4 dead 2. It's called Survival Versus. The pretty much made survival mode into a versus match. It's pretty fun and I believe any one who has the game should try it. I hope it's another mode they decide to keep.

Recently I pulled out an old game known as Persona 3. It was a pretty fun game with an interesting story. Cliche anime wise but hasn't really been done as a game. It mainly focuses on a couple of high schoolers trying to save the world from shadows. What makes it interesting is that it has a dating sim aspect to it. Where you got to balance social interactions with friends. The better you get with people the more powerful monsters you can create to aid you in battle. You should be able to find this game in a bargain bin at gamestop. And it will be worth it if you like rpgs.

Well thats it for now I'll talk to ya later.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Weekly Preview

Hey everybody,

I've decided to start a weekly preview and a weekly review. Every monday morning I will give a preview of what I plan to do for the week. On friday I will give a review of how things turned out. I think by doing this it will put things in prospective and may allow me to do even more.

Well the plan for this week is to work on my story. I plan to flesh out the lore some more as I prepare to begin work on two major projects. The first is the novel based on my story that will focus on the character development of the main character of the series. The other project will be a game based on my story staring the same character. I'd happily tell more but I need to have more concrete work done before I do so.

I also plan to play a few games that I plan to finish before their sequels come out later this year. It's always good to run through a game series before picking up the new one.

I'm also beginning the second week of my exercise plan. I'm hoping to keep up with it so I can lose more weight and get myself to a more healthier and more appealing size.

And finally I plan to step my job searching up a notch. Hopefully I can find something so please wish me luck.

Well thats it for now so see ya later.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Plans 2

Hey everyone,

I've decided now that I'm begining work on my game project I will begin to have a day where I update ya on the progress of my work. That day will be every friday. Also begining next week monday I will update ya on my exercise and weight loss update. I also plan to have a few more updates but those are the major ones.

I'm really psyched for this project and can't wait to tell ya about it. For now mums the word. I also can't wait for E3 ti see all those cool games that I can't buy cause I'm to broke. I'm also still thinking about going back to school. I might have to go through online classes to do it. For now Ill stick to the projects and taking the test that would make me a teacher.

Well I'll talk to ya later.

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Plans

Lately i been doing a lot of thinking. Mostly what to do with my summer to be more productive. I've decided to work on redeveloping my website. I also plan to restart an old comic I use to do called Evil Kat. It would be fun to do and it should get me back into the flow of things. I need steady things to do with my time. And something more than job searching and playing games.

I also plan to begin work on my first game project. it may take a lot of time to finish but I will be showing bits and pieces of it. Be prepared to hear more about it soon. I also trying to figure what to do with transitioning and its very hard to wait. For now I'm going to scavenge what money i can get a hold of to do it, It may be next year when i have a chance. I also thinking about continuing my studies into game art and design by taking online courses.

Well I'll talk to ya soon.
Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Blue Update

It's been sometime since I last updated this and hopefully ill be doing it more frequently. I been thinking alot on my future and finally realized that i'm ready to try to get back my old path again. I already planned a few projects that will get me back to work on what I do best at. Soon I will update my website with a slight redesign as I begin to create new content.

My first goal for my site is to have frequent updates, this way its not a payed email account. The second goal is to make it pay for itself through advertisements. And third is to use it to promote myself. It will mostly start kinda rocky as I wasn't that amazing with my art to begin with. But hopefully be working my ass off I can prove myself as an artist.

Well till next time.

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

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"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Revelation

Hey everybody,

Just saying hi again and wanted to give you an update on things. Last week I had some bad cream in my coffee and got real sick from food posioning. I also think that while my stomach was weak I caught a stomach virus as I recovered from the cream and then got 10 times more sick. Though I was going to die one night cause I couldn't keep anything in. I'm better now but have realized a lot while feeling like I was going to die.

I realized that I lost my passion for life a long time back. Its the reason I can't seem to do anything. Things I found fun i seem to can't get the drive to do them anymore. I've decided I need to force myself to do them in hopes of regaining some of that passion back. If I don't I think my life is already over then. There's nothing pushing me forward anymore and it makes me want to just sit around and mope. I'm going to start with reading again since I have so many books that I never read just sitting around. I plan to get back to writing and already convinced a friend to read my work.

I also have lots of other projects that I will try to work on. I will say no more on those projects till I have something to show ya. I tend to talk more than do. So for now I'll focus on the doing.

Well talk to ya soon.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."

Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Recap of Last Month Event

A lot has happened since my last post yet no real progress with my future.

I went to the first group meeting of the year and ended up getting chewed out about the fact that I'm not working hard enough to find a job. What they said was very true but it really hasn't pushed me forward to find a job. For awhile I went and applied to things but my leads quickly dried up. What got me real depressed was when I was putting together a new resume and I realized how little qualification I have. I had to accept that i really suck. And I'm not really a good hire when it comes down to it. Pretty much the only things I'm good at won't get me a job where I live as my skills are to specialized and really aren't that amazing cause of lack of practice.

Other than that My sister dog broke into the neighbors yard again as well as chewed through the phone cord out back which we eventually got fixed and got a better chain to chain his ass up. I really hate him and the fact I still gotta take care of him since its my responsibility since I have no job.

I haven't been keeping up with the gym at all but luckily my eating habits and budget kept me from gaining any weight really. i think another problem is there not really much that I can eat around here unless I want to eat a stockpile of pizza every day. Though now we have more variety in things but I think my stomach shrunk any way and tend to not eat as much as use to last year.

I'm really very lost. The loneliness is starting to get to me and I don't have the drive to change it really. At times I really think about just sleeping the days away as theirs not really much to do. I can literally get all things of importance done on monday and just wake up to do do dishes and feed dogs and go back to bed. I kinda spend the days doing pointless things that bring no advancement or satisfaction.

I'm hoping to change that this week, by practicing my essay writing. I also plan to start my story ideas back to the drawing board and plan to spend alot of time fine tuning details to get a IP Bible put together. It may take alot of time to do this and I might just get back to writing the book long before trully finishing this. Though I plan not to attempt publishing until I got this together. This way if my book becomes successful I pretty much have all the background to make sure that any future stories stay true to the universe I'm creating. I'm also getting serious with my animation skills and plan to do a character animation set a week. It's pretty much needed practice I need to do before making a new demo reel as well as getting ready to expand myself as a freelancer.

Well I hope to try to be more frequent with updates. But I won't make any promises I mostlikely won't keep. So I'll post eventually.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."

Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

A New Year for failure

I would love to wish for success for this year, but lets be realistic. This year will be just like the years before. It will start with wide eyed dreams and wishes of wonder that will lead to nightmares and sadness. I have accepted that my dreams may just be dreams. Most is not obtainable anytime soon or have to many obstacles to break through. I would love to say I will take any risk to achieve them but really, I'm a coward who's just all talk.

Since the biggest obstacle is my mom and I don't see me really gaining the courage to go against her. I feel everyday I'm some hamster in wheel never going anywhere no matter how much I run. Some people say when you got nothing to lose all you can do is push forward. The problem with me is I still have much to lose and will most likely will lose before achieving my dreams. I wish I was a stronger person or at least made the right decisions before becoming as broken as I am now.

Though to not be completely depressing I do know one thing I can truly accomplish this year. Losing more weight. I really wish that losing the weight would instantly aid me in my other dreams but all it will do is make sure I have more time to attain it. Thats if I don't finally bash open my head against a wall in frustration.

Lets say In a perfect world I knew what I needed to do with out little loss. What would those wishes be for the year. Well the weight thing would still be there. Becoming a published writter, and pushing forward with my transition. Both seem easy to do but their not. My novel could be complete crap not worty to be published. I might not turn out looking decent in my transition and I could lose all my family in the process. I could also be killed by some asshole. But that could happen no matter what path a person takes in life. Just some paths have a less likely chance that it's out of hate and rather out of the cash in your wallet.

Well I'm going to stop for now. What I will try to do this year is use this blog more. Though nobody checks this crap it's good to get my emotions out through writing. To bad I can't make money doing this.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."

Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com