Recap of Last Month Event

A lot has happened since my last post yet no real progress with my future.

I went to the first group meeting of the year and ended up getting chewed out about the fact that I'm not working hard enough to find a job. What they said was very true but it really hasn't pushed me forward to find a job. For awhile I went and applied to things but my leads quickly dried up. What got me real depressed was when I was putting together a new resume and I realized how little qualification I have. I had to accept that i really suck. And I'm not really a good hire when it comes down to it. Pretty much the only things I'm good at won't get me a job where I live as my skills are to specialized and really aren't that amazing cause of lack of practice.

Other than that My sister dog broke into the neighbors yard again as well as chewed through the phone cord out back which we eventually got fixed and got a better chain to chain his ass up. I really hate him and the fact I still gotta take care of him since its my responsibility since I have no job.

I haven't been keeping up with the gym at all but luckily my eating habits and budget kept me from gaining any weight really. i think another problem is there not really much that I can eat around here unless I want to eat a stockpile of pizza every day. Though now we have more variety in things but I think my stomach shrunk any way and tend to not eat as much as use to last year.

I'm really very lost. The loneliness is starting to get to me and I don't have the drive to change it really. At times I really think about just sleeping the days away as theirs not really much to do. I can literally get all things of importance done on monday and just wake up to do do dishes and feed dogs and go back to bed. I kinda spend the days doing pointless things that bring no advancement or satisfaction.

I'm hoping to change that this week, by practicing my essay writing. I also plan to start my story ideas back to the drawing board and plan to spend alot of time fine tuning details to get a IP Bible put together. It may take alot of time to do this and I might just get back to writing the book long before trully finishing this. Though I plan not to attempt publishing until I got this together. This way if my book becomes successful I pretty much have all the background to make sure that any future stories stay true to the universe I'm creating. I'm also getting serious with my animation skills and plan to do a character animation set a week. It's pretty much needed practice I need to do before making a new demo reel as well as getting ready to expand myself as a freelancer.

Well I hope to try to be more frequent with updates. But I won't make any promises I mostlikely won't keep. So I'll post eventually.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."

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