Whats on my mind

Hey everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. I've recently been thinking a lot on my future. It won't be long before the year is up and I haven't accomplished much. The only highlight of the year is starting hormones in secret. Other than that its another failure year for me. I need to get on the right track if I'm ever going to find happiness and financial security.

Starting next year i will be doing my all to find a full time or part time job. I will also further my path to becoming a woman. I will at some point have to confront my mom on the issue. Next year will be a lot of hard work. In some ways its started already with me working this seasonal job. The money will help my future plans.

I will also try to fight back my gaming addiction and reign it in. It's time to grow up from a boy and become a woman.

Well I'll talk to ya soon.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge." Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

On track.

Hey everybody,

Recently i got a post card from Macy's asking if I want to work their again. I went online to apply and now have a interview for thursday. If the hiring process is like last year I should probably start working  around thanksgiving. Which would be cool.

I also have a doctors appointment coming up to get my last physical before my insurance is up. I also plan to see the eye doctor to.

I recently finished Batman Arkham City and I find that it was an amazing game. I'm kinda sad that Mark Hamil will no longer be playing the joker after this. But it was a great end for a great character.

Well I guess thats it for now. I'll talk to ya later.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge." Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Been awhile

Hey everybody,

Its like the title says its been awhile since my last update. I been rather busy and also forgetful. Not much progress in my life since my last post. Mostly a lot of thinking and a lot of game playing. I been contemplating what to do with myself and it has been hard.

I know a lot of what I must do but it is still hard to do it. I plan to get my self right in the coming months and hopefully next year will be promising.

Well talk to ya soon.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

A New Day

Hey everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. I just turned 25 yesterday and am still a bit of a loser. I plan to change that and I have begun to change it before my birthday. I have started a new exercise regiment that I will increase as a go through the summer. I'm also gearing up to get my creativity back. But I would say the most important step would have been aquiring my first batch of hormones.

With it I will begin my transition and will become the woman thats been deep inside of me. While I do this I will regain my passions and push myself farther than I ever did before. I need to regain my life and become someone I'm proud to be. It will be a lot of work, time and money, but it is worth it.

I may lose family and friends over this. But they really aren't worth knowing if they can't accept the real me. I will not be shoving it in people face and will be discrete with my transition for awhile. I would rather wait till I'm ready to go full time before telling everyone my business since a lot of people I don't deal with personally.

Well today begins a new day and I can't wait to see what happens.

Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Weekend Update

Hey Everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. Well I'm currently getting back to my writing this weekend. I'm hoping to get a lot done in that regard. I also have some games i want to finish and a few movies I want to watch. I'm shifting focus on trying to really work on my novel and game design project. The novel and game are pretty much one and the same but the game is going to be very interactive and you can go completely different paths compared to the novel. In a way the novel is kinda of a guide for the game.

Currently everything is just in planning and I wish to begin some real writing for the novel this weekend. The game will probably be a long time planning as it will be made up of more than one book will contain.

Work Goals:

1. Yard work
2. Finish Planning Story
3. Finish first chapters of story
4. Work on Game Designs
   

Games I plan to beat:

1. Tales from Monkey Island 4 and 5
2. Dragon Age 2
3. Pokemon Black
   

Current book I'm reading:

1. Mass Effect Ascension
   

Movie's I plan to watch:

1. Despicable Me
2. AVP
3. AVP: Requiem
   
4. Ghost in the Shell 2nd Gig
5. Archer Season 1

Well talk to ya later.
Blue


"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Gaming Update

Hey Everybody,

Just wanted to say and give you an update on things. Well lately I got my hands on a lot of games. I got Dragon age 2 and a few playstation originals off of the psn. I also have some other games that I've had for awhile that I need to finish.

Currently the top five games I will be focusing on are Tales from Monkey Island Episode 3, Pokemon Black, Parasite Eve, Dragon Age 2, and Assassin Creed Brotherhood.

I will give you more updates when I finish one of these games and even a review.

Well talk to ya soon.
Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Blue Update

Hey Everybody,

It's been some time since my last update. Well I'm still jobless, but have accepted my situation. I'm planning to go back to school but it will be some time. Before that I need to choose my major and prepare myself for that major. I currently plan to work on both my writing and my game designs. I'm thinking about giving myself a little project to do each week. That will be focused on these skills. Might also re develop my website again.

I'm also trying to balance my budget again. Trying to figure out a way to get the games I want, but also move forward in my transition to become a woman. I'm trying to set an appointment with a new therapist to get the ball rolling.

For now I will work on regaining my passions and getting my priorities right. Hopefully I can land a job before the year is out.

Well talk to ya soon.
Blue

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Blue Update

Hey everybody,

Just wanted to say hi and give you an update on things. Well things have been alright. Not much has happened since my last post. I recently got a credit card to help build up my credit. I'm going to use it right and mainly filter my bills through it so I only have to pay one big payment each month. This way I can build my credit slowly. I also been doing a lot of thinking.

I feel very anxious to get another job as I feel each day my chances for a job get less. But I seriously don't have a lot of options. I constantly apply to retail jobs and get nothing. I lucked up on Macy's during the holiday which helped out but I'm probably more down because of it.

My degree was a bust and I can't hardly do anything with it at the moment since I let my game art skills degrade. Not like I had much to begin with. I think if I can just get a steady job I can build myself back up and maybe pursue a masters. I either have to chance it and pray i get enough loan money to cover an online major or wait till i can get some job to fund it.

so far my key options for jobs is a potential call back from Macy's if I'm lucky. Or a job at Gamestop if my friends connections pull through. Then the other thought is what I do to progress with my transition. Do I chance losing whatever job I get to transition into a woman or trying to get a job in one of the fields I'm interested in once I get my masters.

Well for now I just wait and see. Make some plans and figure what my next step is. I don't have a lot of time though.

Well I'll talk to you soon.
Blue


"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com

Long time no blog.

Hey everybody,

It's been some time since my last blog. A lot has happened over that time. I had a seasonal job that is now over, I bought a ps3, and I contemplated my future.

The seasonal job was fun for awhile and I was able to socialize like I have never been able to do since I graduated. It makes me want to get back out their and live life. I made some money which is good and I hope to use it wisely as I try to track down my next job. Hopefully that doesn't take to long.

I bought a ps3 to open the door to more games. I started by buying a whole mess of exclusives that I wanted to play for a long time. Right now I'm finishing what I own now and renting games to help entertain myself during this jobless period.

I been thinking a lot on my future. I decided that I need to push forward with my transition. I may not be able to afford hormones or hair removal, but I can do a lot of other stuff. I plan to first talk to my mom about my intentions and then get my ears pierced as the first step to a new me.

Well thats it for now. I'll tell ya more later.

"Never back down from a challenge."Blue Oni Creations- www.blueonicreations.com